I often wonder

how much longer we have to tolerate bad karma.... and yes, itis advidable to just ignore the animals we do not like, bu what if me as a puppet needs to hang next to someone that is out to make my life hell.

when is it ego, and when is it a need of love?

...and the journey took me

to a placed where i never thought i would end up. with myself. i think one can only be hapy when you look at yourself in the refelction of the water and say: i am okay!

I am exhausted...

the sun was shining really badly today.... nobody could concentrate and it took so much more energy to get somethng done... but energy is something I've been struggling with my whole life.... it seems (looking from here) that I have been leading a rolercoaster ride.... and then the question came up? what motivates me? is it the good things i have done or happened to me, or the hope that something good will happen??

i had a wonderful day

.... and in my search for happiness i realised one thing. We all look for it, some of us follow the rules and other just live.... without counting the cost. What is the meaning of life? If only I can be happy? Then....

Happiness lies within the piece you find within yourself... and your maker. Happiness is not something to seek for, but time with yourself, with God

had a thought today....

I wonder up to what extend one should play the politics and in the end loose oneself... that is the identity of being me. Do I now suddely have to hang on branches that hurts my hands, and make me cry, or can I rather stay swinging on a willow tree - where the river flows. I gues life is a game, played in different styles and different ways. I do believe that somewhere there is a thin line between the politics you play to survive and survival itself. I think I am going to eat two bananas this week... and spoil myself a bit!